New Favourite Film

 As a girl who has a veeeery short attention span and prefers reading books to watching movies and series, I am very happy to say that I now have a new favourite film. It's 'Death Becomes Her' from 1992.

I am so not into pop culture that I didn't even realise the guy was Bruce Willis until I looked up the cast online. I started watching the film during Halloween and I've only just finished it today (talk about short attention span!) but I enjoyed it immensely. I must say I really love American movies from the 90s. The background music, the look of the mansions, the clothes... It's just so nostalgic. My favourite part was when Madeline (Meryl Streep) got up (all distorted/contorted) after being pushed down the stairs by her husband. I think that scene was just so funny and creepy and very entertaining.

So far my most favourite films, including this, are:

50 First Dates

Mulan

Sleepless in Seattle

I've also just finished watching a British series on ITVx called 'Coldwater'. I enjoyed all of the episodes but didn't really like how it ended. I think each episode was thrilling and then it got to the end and it was just not thrilling at all. I do enjoy British shows though because they are short (6-8 episodes) and I feel they are well made. Some that I have finished and enjoyed include:

Malpractice

I Fought the Law

Our House

Joan

Angela Black

Passenger

Cleaning Up

I have not been into reading lately (I'm still trying to finish the two books I borrowed from the library months ago!). I have started reading the Bible again and I would like to keep going. It's been a beautiful month to start reading from Luke. I have missed a few months from my daily Bible reading and I hope I can just keep going and finish the year strong. The past few months really have affected me and I lost touch with the things that I love doing and felt I was wasting time enjoying life. How wrong I was! Enjoying life and stopping stressing is exactly what God wants me to do. I pray to continue to relax and take care of my mind and body.

Love,

R

Of Nothing and Everything

 It is November 2025 and I am at a chapter in my life when there is nothing and everything at the same time. The transition from hustle to home has been stormy at first (tears, numbness and vomiting from the medication, and lots of questions and what ifs) but gradually it has been pleasantly peaceful and slow.

I have been on one job interview (awaiting the outcome!) and lovingly filling my days with acts of service for my husband, tidying our home and spending time with my family (when they can - I'm now the one who has a lot of time on my hands!). The driving really keeps me on my toes and I pray to be more confident behind the wheel each time I set off. I feel that being on the road is fine. It's the stopping/parking/any sort of manoeuvering that really is my weakness. I pray that in a few months time, I can come back to this blog post and say "I made it! I love driving!".

I also have just completed one round of Letrozole to induce ovulation. Apparently I haven't been ovulating based on the two blood tests I have done this year! I have my Day 21 serum progesterone test soon and I hope it will show that I am responding to this dose. Thank You, God, for the healthcare professionals who are helping us on our fertility journey. Also, thank You to my mom and the sisters at the Convent for sharing St. Gerard's relic with us. I am grateful to everyone praying for us. My prayer request is to be able to give my mom and dad grandchildren to love and treasure 🥰

Thank You, Lord Jesus, for the nothing and everything. The pain I felt this year was for a purpose. My waiting season has a purpose. I am preparing myself and our home for the beautiful blessings that lay ahead. In You I place my trust.

Love,

R

Gentle Break and Stop

 Psalm 113

1 Praise the Lord.[a]

Praise the Lord, you his servants;

    praise the name of the Lord.

2 Let the name of the Lord be praised,

    both now and forevermore.

3 From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets,

    the name of the Lord is to be praised.

4 The Lord is exalted over all the nations,

    his glory above the heavens.

5 Who is like the Lord our God,

    the One who sits enthroned on high,

6 who stoops down to look

    on the heavens and the earth?

7 He raises the poor from the dust

    and lifts the needy from the ash heap;

8 he seats them with princes,

    with the princes of his people.

9 He settles the childless woman in her home

    as a happy mother of children.

Praise the Lord.

This is what I read yesterday on the way to work. I had to read verse 9 again and again as the timing was surprising. I hope and pray that this happens for me and my husband ❤️ 

I am letting go of good things to make space for better things - the ones that truly matter. Yesterday I handed my notice in at work. Here's to letting peace in. Here's to taking better care of my health and my family. Here's to pausing and being present in the waiting room. Here's to no Plan B but I know God's not done with me yet ♥️

Back to Driving

Today I have started my refresher driving lessons. I haven't driven since the day of my driving test back in March 2017 in Birmingham. I passed the first time! As someone who grew up with a family of non-drivers, this is a massive achievement as I literally started from zero experience with cars.

Throughout the years I have moved jobs, moved house, got married, and still no car 😂 It hasn't been a need as of late but I have realised that if I want to expand my horizon and remove my job prospect limitations, I need to be able to drive. Hence why I am doing my refresher lessons.

I miss Nina, my previous driving instructor. I was stressed the whole time I was doing my lessons in Birmingham and I feel I have also been slightly stressed today doing my refreshers with Chris. I need to brush up on my gear changes and foot work. I am grateful to God for putting these instructors in my life as I know they are here to teach me and to make sure that I (and others) will be safe on the roads.

My plans for the future will be to be confident driving on the roads (especially on the motorway!) and to buy a car. I hope that my husband will also start his driving lessons so we can both drive our car. I am scared, excited, happy and also nervous at the same time. I pray that God will always keep us safe on every journey.

I am scared but I need to be brave for me and my family. This is another level of adulting that I would like to unlock.

Thank you, Lord, for being with me always. I know I can do this. 

Love,

R

The Year that Was

 

Two job applications submitted exactly one year apart (bar one minute!)...

This entire year has pushed me to my limits, made me feel emotions that I didn't think I had in me and, most importantly, this is the year that I realised my worth and career potentials.

Thank You, Lord Jesus, for guiding me through all of it. When everything was beyond my control, You have always been my source of comfort in a year of no peace. I have applied for voluntary severance. I have sent out multiple job applications. I have no answers to what comes next. All these I offer up to You. I am not in control but You are. Please allow me to align my heart with Yours.

Love,

R